Well, I promised an update. I'm currently avoiding replying to any of my texts. I'm not in the mood to talk to someone right now. My head hurts like crazy, but I cannot sleep. I don't want to take my sleeping meds tonight, since they told me to space it out so I don't become "addicted".
I finally got internet back at my father's house. Unfortunately it isn't any faster, but will be alright for updating and facebook for the weekends I won't be with wireless in Windsor. I really really want my new laptop, like right now. I'm super anxious. I want to have my music collection all in one place, I want my games back, and I want to continue a few projects I dropped with the death of the old laptop.
I love having a personality that can get along with anyone, and pick up conversations of nothing right away.
I've been counting down the days till graduation, like the faggot I am. 81 days and counting. The only reason I count down is because I want to leave this little town and all of it's silence. I love the people here (school) but I hate my house and "home" living. All anyone does is scream and get angry at nothing. Just like mom's house. I can't wait for something of my own, where the only screaming will either be at the tv or a game.
I've realized the only time I am ever worry free is when I'm with John. My headaches disappear completely, and I am relaxed. This indeed is a miracle, because I've never felt this way in such a long time. With him, I am constantly happy, and when he's holding me I feel like I'm on cloud nine. I sound so cliche or cheesy, but what "they" say about love is true. I guess I'm still afraid, but I wouldn't want this to be with anyone else but him.
I want my birthday present from Vannessa.
I've been on a "Tegan & Sara, Dragonette, and Electronica mixes" downloading spree. I happen to like my change in taste of music.
