This is the year I needed to make a difference, this is the year I wanted to change. When I look back on things, I want to be able to say that it was right; a perfect year.
This school year was anything but perfect. I failed classes, lost some friends, and made a few enemies. I screwed myself over, and just wasted my time wallowing in self pity. This was no way to spend my year, but on the upside I have no regrets.
I could have tried harder. I could have studied instead of going out with friends. I could have done my homework instead of watching television, or spending all my time on here. I could have cared, but instead I sat around not giving a shit about my life.
I made my share of mistakes, and I picked up new habits. I smoked, I drank, I did drugs. Those habits won't stay with me today, but I don't think I'll ever forget. And I can't believe I would waste so much time of my life over a boy. If I had any regrets in my life, he would be it. I lost two really good friends over those long six months, but I gained one back within time.
Now, I'm leaving for a new town and a new school. On August 15th, I start my life over. I can be new, and I can be me, but is that what I really want?
The sole reason I wanted to leave was to escape the highschool drama I started this year. But if I'm recovering and making amends, will that justify my leaving anymore?
However, my first thoughts to the idea of leaving everyone behind was to cause as much trouble as possible, and leave a streak of destruction in my path. Now as I come across it, I have a new feeling. I want to patch things up.
I know it's almost summer, but maybe I still have a chance to make the end of my year perfect.
I know I'm changing, but it's always for the better.
Truth is, I really am going to miss Windsor.
